Nags : Fatigue

Reading several last posts in my blog, I realize that I nagged so much these month, haha. Things come and go so fast until I'm sure no one has my whole story of everything that happened to me these days. Remembering that I always update my story to a person that I believe so much, enough describing how fast things change. To me who is not that flexible to changing, these moments can be so stressful.

Sometimes I can be so bothered about the reason why things around me happened. For example, when I feel uncomfortable in my society, I ask myself why people can be so unaware to the person near them. How could they don't care, why so self-centered. Things are so distracting these times. Like, when I'm still in my preparation for several things, world keeps rushing me and when I think I'm ready, everything's went away; like, why it's happened, and what Allah is trying to say to me.

As a person who often listen stories from people, I get to know more why people can be so annoyed only because of things that we think unimportant; because it's not that easy to be objective to see our own problems. Suatu masalah akan berbeda apabila dilihat dari orang yang mengalami dan orang yang mengamati. I once read, kita membutuhkan orang lain untuk menjadi mata elang dan melihat masalah kita dari ketinggian; dari sudut pandang yang lebih luas. Sedangkan, kita berada di dalam kondisi yang sulit untuk melihat sesuatu dengan lebih komprehensif. From that, we should know that sometimes we need another perspective to see our problem. The most important thing for me, is to take a break from thinking the problem, so we can think about it clearer. Sometimes, I hate myself for being too emotional, because it was so tiring (which not all of my friend realize that I can be that way). But now, I can accept myself more for being emotional because it's normal to be one in several conditions, denying it will make us stressful instead, as long as we got the line.

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say, but; good luck, self!